Summary Of My Life Journey (~ o ~) v

Wow.. its been a very long time since i last posted anything on my Blog! and yes i mean freakinglisly long time.. I have no idea what made me too lazy to type or my mind is too busy with my wedding preparation and my wedding..my job changed, Im a married women and now on the way becoming a mother.. Really??? all less then a year... this is what my life is totally after getting officially on 2nd november 2013.. and im today exactly 9 months pregnant!! Yeay? im not sure.. its very scary to go into motherhood.. so im not sure its a Yeay or OMG moment for me as for now :)

But anyway enuff with blabing as u all know im very good at this ( and still am -.- ! ) well well well i honestly have no idea where to start from.. The journey has been going too fast even for me to catch up.. I was even behind when my whole life is moving super fast infront of me..Well thats what we call combination of ( Wedding Honeymoon and baby making ) =P

So first and foremost ill like to take a deep breath and announce to the whole world (im still imagining the whole world is reading my blog -- when the truth is only me myself and I am reading it over and over again --> not to mention forcing those around me to read it tho they have a very weird face expression i tend to ignore it ) hahah anyway back to the announcement.. I am officially the wife to My beloved Husband Mohd Yassin Gulam Nabi :) and back to my Old Old post about how i hate to be arranged marriage and so on :D guess again ^_^ i got it right on my face.. wedding was arranged by mom and dad :) but the best part about all wasnt force :D was willingly and gladly approved by me because hubby is a sweetheart :D thank god i got to grab him before others did :P hee :P and yeah arranged isnt that bad after all :) tho u still have lifetime question to ask about him.. but thats the whole fun part of it :D

So yeah... got married.. went for Honeymoon and babymaking in Korea :) was a fantabulous trip ever.. Loved it because it was during winter :P hah! Enjoyed eating veggie for 9 days :) because most of the meat beef and other foods are non Halal =.= so veggie was the ONLY safe thing we ate 9 days...I felt really living like a goat with all Green salads and green veggie! i pity the life of cows and goats now~~ Next time i see them ill surely try to feed them with some chicken or meat ! OH HOW CRUEL of me! hahahah

Anyway we went to alot of places in Korea.. we had time of our life!! was really fun and was nice because all was sponsored by my baby boo :P so it was double fun :P hahahhaa we played with ice try to build snowman which never worked! ( ice skating -- not with skates but with shoes because its slippery enuff even not using skates ) -- skiing! that was the beST!  We did alot of activities and visit alot of places! we were bestfrens with KIMCHII :) and that was the only food we had almost everyday there :)







So practically we had alot of fun in Korea until reality hits back directly on our face when we reach Malaysia normal life begins :) By then i was actually already preggy.. found out on January tho! oh yea we went honeymoon was on December because that was the time I stopped working in HSBC :) and i was about to start my new journey in logicalis Australia company based in cyberjaya on january!





So yeah i waas preggy when i newly joined Logicalis :P funny part was when i went for interview i was still Single tho! when i got the job offer as well i was single and when i joined on january not only i was married :P i even have a Baby in my tummy :P hahah thats what we call express honeymoon baby :P

So yeah now im already 9 months pregnant and waiting for delivary anytime soon.. What i can do is just summarize my whole (Almost 1 year ) story into one small short ( not so short ) blog of mine :P

Since my fingers are getting fat, my face tummy, body and everyting is FAT.. i became extra LAZY to type or anyting ( i always have to blame sumone .. today is my baby .. she made me fat ) T.T sobs sobs.. All those time i spent on GYM and workout its flying out of da window! thanks baby for making mummy gigantic godzilla :) but I am very happy and cant wait to see her ^_^  all those kicking in the stomach.. making mummy stomach upset and puking all over.. headache .. backpain and ache all da time :P sumone would have to get a spanking right :P heee ^__^ but my spanking is by suffocating baby with loads of kisses and hugs till she cry :) ^___^ yeayyy!!!

anyway i dont know why since becoming a mummy my hormones changes and i am soo the Motherhood i love u baby u love me baby kindda person now.. These mushy mushy feelings which i never had in life before is striking like missiles in my chest right thru the heart! oh Dear! what am i becoming! from a very I DONT CARE ABOUT LIFE AND WORLD AND PEOPLE AROUND me to this im so in love with my baby and cant wait to see her growing thing ive became ! ( ok stop puking around when reading all this mushy mushy thing ok ) :P ur day will come too!!

Anyway my FAT FINGERS with my backache is actually asking me to take a rest and stop torturing peoples eyes by reading such a LONG LONG essay on my blog ! Its time for me to LET IT GO!! LET IT GO!! see you people some other time  ^__^ and here ill insert some cute pictures of me hubby honeymoon and babybumps for update ^_^ till next time adios..

Betrayal Of Your OWn Best Friend..

Here we go again... When i have no one to turn  to and no friends to share my feelings with.. Virtual wall will be my next victim... Pouring all my feelings here will make me feel better.. and make me take out watever that is bugging me..and i will never have to look back to it ever again..

It's hard to tell who has your back, from who has it long enough just to stab you in it....:) thats exactly what i feel right now.. When a Friend a person you share your life with.. secrets, happiness, sorrrow.. u gave them advise.. u receive from them advice.. u give them strenght when they are down.. u are present in their happiness and sadness.. u have always been there to do whatever you can to cheer them up when they are down.. U help them when they are broke.. u celebrate together when just got salary.. U teach them what LIFE is all about.. at the end of the day to just get yourself fool by them..

That sux.. and it sux to be in that situation.. If a person never appreciate these little things in life.. they are not eligible to be called Friends.. All those empty promises and all those conversation that last for hours..
On how they are changed.. how they have had a different perspective in LIFE.. and how they feel so much better when we are around.. All is for nothing but a betrayal at the end of the day...

Tho a friend betrayed the trust we have build over the years.. At the end of the day... I regret not for being  friend.. But to be fool and trust the words.. Those words that changed my everything in a day.. and destroyed me in the next minute.. That powerful word when people tell u and when u think they mean it.. But at the end they dont.. Oh only god knows how it feels to be betrayed by your so called BEST Friend..

Now i know where i stand as a fren in ur life.. Now i know what you called as friends is jst a fake and good that you found another replacement... I never knew my life would turn 360 when u betrayed my trust.. I wish i can forgive u that easily.. but forgiving u is not worth it.. because of the hurt that you have created is way more than i deserve as a friend that stick by you all this time..

What irritated me most in that entire situation was the fact that I
wasn’t feeling humiliated, or annoyed. Betrayal was
what I felt, my heart broken not just by a person, but
also by, as I once believed, a true friend

Thanks for everything ,..

Why~ Oh WHy :(

its 5.30 in the morning and im still sitting here with my lappie thinking of wats gonna happen in life.. thats a freaking shit that u only get to do when everyone else is asleep.. soo i guess since there is no living humans rite now to talk to.. and i tried speaking to my teddies and the respond was very bad... i decided to blog :) 

so here we go .. a small pathway thru my tiny small brain :) ( not tat i meant im dumb or anyting.. i just said tat cos it sound cute )  anyway back to the topic..oh wait~!~ i din even say wats the topic?? did i? now im just confuring all and myself...

Anyway.. im kindda feeling lost... and little bit sad.. and mix with a little bit upset and all together makes me wanna cry.. ask me why please!! ask me why~!!!!!! okay.. first of all I really miss my old days when i was in MMU with my frens and all my buddies.. sitting and chilling eating burgers and having awesome fantabulous time together.. and all i have today is nothing but memories... it sux... cos nothing can replace frens.. and for me.. frens are my life!! :( soo yeah... missing my old days.. cos now when im working in office enviroment.. is just not the same anymore.. its tottaly like a new place and new people and they are just not really best budds that goes out and chill together.. they are more like the office mate for lunch or dinner at the office cafeteria kind of people u know wat i mean :)

ILAH~~

Anyway.. why im sad second is.. after all this years.. i found two very close frens of mine.. one arabian sweet awesome and dead crazy girl.. sameera.. and another Malay fren sweet caring a loving fadhilah... okay this gona sound weird and flowery.. sorry sameera I know ur not expecting flowery message from me especially ,,hahahhaha anyway.. I start with my longest best buds which is my preggie Ilah..she is my advisor.. my mommy.. my listener..she is very calm and seems to know wats she is doing all the time.. i am the tottaly oppsite of her..full of anger and always so messed up not organized or calm..together we are the YING YANG.. now i know why i am black and she is white.. awesome..cos we are YING YANG.. damn it i wish i was the white one tho.. anyway back to topic!!! sheesh.. i can divert so far on just my skin color :P hahah..anyway...she is the one tat always will be there.. in a dilemma.. ILAHH!!!! she is there.. sadness..ILAHHHH she is there...even during constipation if i see her i probably will feel much better :) haehehehehhe.. to be honest she is really a very helpful and always with a solution to everyproblem i ever own.. she knows how to calm me when im pissed and make me smile when im sad... but now she is now pregnent.. of cos im happy for her.. there is no reason to be sad watsoever.. but the sad thing is.. now she will have her baby to pay all her attention to.. and im gonna so be left out once her family is complete with a crying machine.. ( yes illah babies cries alllll da time.. dun come telling me my babies different  ) and yeah dun forget they are gonna be a shitting machine as well.. beware..tats why i ask u to adopt me instead.. i wont cry nor shit.. :) ill be the best daugher to u.. :P hahha anyway.. apart from being sad im gonna loose my sweet loving ilah after she is gonna divert all her attention to her new born baby..:( who im gonna cry too then :( :( who la i wanna whine too then.. she will be having a massive headache when i do another ILAAHHHHHHH!!!! :P heheheheheh

SAMEERA

My partner in crime.. Sameera ... the crazy girl that might ending me up in a JAIL for our crazines. the one that i always goes and spend hours on gossping with her... and we will do our makeup on each other.. pedi and medi session.. movie partner.. KL shopping partner.. any adventure trips.. scuba diving.. madness trip in the car with speed... teaching her how to drive.. and seeing how shinny and bright her face lit up when i allow her to fill in the fuel in my car... seing her able to drive manual and she will be super happy to even move the car for like 1 KM it made her feel like she has drove for over 100 Mile.. the party girl.. tat though me how awesome it is to have ONLY girls party and no GUYS are allowed.... Thought me alot about ARABIAN food......cooked for me like awesome traditional food ... picnic at CYBER lake... TIOMAN, PERHENTIAN.. snorkeling... swimming.. my GYM and ZUMBA partner.. my god the list will go on and on .. will never stop...
 If you are wondering why they hell am i talking about her... and yes she is surely NOT  pregrnent if u think she is :P 

The reason i am talking about her is because she is LEAVING :( and i mean leaving Malaysia and going back for good.. ( hate it when they say for good.. tho for me is for bad ) cos im gonna miss her.. her stupid funny jokes...her annoying laugh... her craziness and everything about her... im gonna miss you sameera.. wallahi i cant seriously imagine how wud it be when ur going back... im gonna loose not just my best fren but a sister.. i wish im not there to say goodbye.. but i cant afford to let u leave without seeing u for the last time... my shopping and my movies and my adventure trip wud be soo soo empty without u with me.. I feel im loosing the other side of my active body when ur going back.. But hey!! at least the memories remains.. :) and tat for sure no one can take it away :)

I am surely gonna miss u majnoona.. Wallahi soo much tho it makes me sound like a freaking lesbian for a moment.. i dont care.. i only have the both of you in my life.. and surely it will impact me alot :( but watever it is.. u are always welcome to Malaysia.. u know ill always greet u with arms wide open.. but if u din buy me anyting from there ill kick u back to ur country hah~


And after you are gone... i am gona be sticking like a glue to ILAH :P hehehe haiii babe **bats eyelashes annoyingly** hahahahahhah and now since ur the only one left for me to bother.. :) ull have two babies to take care of :D hahahhahahah ur nitemare is just starting babe :D weee ^____^

THE AWESOME MOMENTS THAT I WILL CHERISH FOREVER :) 

Anyway :) this is a small of wats in my brain at this point of time...and hope u guys enjoy this weird mushy and fuzzy feelings blogging today :P hahahahhaha till next time :) astala vista :)

This is dedicated to my TWO BESTIES.. ur the reason im still awake till 6.17am.. and now u have to treat me Nandos and TGIF! :P hahahahahha 

 

I WUV U GUYS SO MUCH..XoXO

 

Meow meow :) 

You are bright as a diamond... God Bless you uncle...

There's so much to tell. But I don't know who to tell it to. I would have written a book, but that doesn't seem enough now.. My emotions is mixed now.. sometimes i feel like smiling thinking of the funny moments we spent.. sometimes i just wana break down in tears remembering that all those sweet moments will be left as memories of me and my uncle... Yes today is about my dear beloved Uncle...



Let me bring you towards his characteristic to make you understand what kind of guy he is.. He is tall, slim and slender. Solid body structure not too thin nor too fat. He got a very nice straight hair. he is tall and a little bit dark brown shaded. He is very good looking among his siblings.. he used to be very good looking when he was young thats what my mom use to say... I adore the way he brings himself in public and the way he makes us laugh with his undying jokes.. He use to have it with him.. The AURA.. we call it.. wherever he goes , he wont spend a second without making a person smile or worst burst into tears by laughing on his funny jokes.. I call him the family JOKER.. he is funny, very energetic, always up to some tricks.. his best way of entertaining us is his **magic Show** ... yeah thats what he calls it.. 



I am always looking forward whenever he will be attending any of the functions in my house cos i know he  will always try some new tricks or IQ test for us to try on. We can go on  hours and hours listening to his funny jokes..he always makes us laugh with the answers to his riddle.. he is a good chap... Really amazing attitude, very friendly, always smiling and entertaining people is his passion..



He is the type of guy that people wont get rid off easily.. he is fun and he makes the environment so lively.. with him in any function.. u really dont need entertainer cos he really makes the best out of it.. I really do love my dear uncle so much just as much i love my own father..


The day I heard he was really sick in the hospital really break me to pieces.. knowing the person that used to be soo energetic and never ever felt tired of making people laugh around him is sick?? how could that possibly be... i have always imagine people being sick.. but honestly.. i never ever had that imagination on seeing my uncle sick.. that is like impossible for me seeing him sick.. tho i know it can happen to anyone.. but my energetic uncle was the least suspected. 



The day when the news broke into my house.. I went to the hospital to pay him a visit.. looking at him.. soo skinny.. not have eaten for few weeks.. even when drinking water all he did was puking it back out.. his body digestion system was really bad.. he cant eat nor drink.. he cant sit or sleep... he cant breath properly.. he got problems with his kidney, lungs and his heart.. and he was too weak for another operation.. I was literally dying inside of me seeing him suffering like that.. the lively, funny, crazy and happy go lucky guy that i once known has tottaly dissapeared. he is like a total stranger that i have never met.. he dont look the same anymore.. He was really sick.. and i mean really.....



 2 days i been in and out of the hospital visiting him as im working and that the only time i got to actually visit him.. i brought mom n sis to see him.. we were sitting next to him talking to him.. trying to give him strength talk to him and try to make him laugh so he will forget about his sickness even for 2 minutes we were happy enuff to do so.. Tho he was tired, sick and unable to move properly.. he actually asked them to help him sit up,  and ordered his daighter to find him a pen and a paper.. Getting a pen and a papper he drew a star and give me and IQ question.. To be honest i tried but it didnt work.. I have to admit he is really smart in IQ test and all this IQ question.. I gave up after trying 3 times.. he was teliing me the next day.. that if I wanna learn on the techniques of answering the IQ test.. i had to massage his neck before he pass the info to me.. it made me giggle a little. and i massage his head to make him sleep properly as he didnt sleep for weeks.. 


Today in the morning mom recieve a phone call... he was already in life support.. There is nothing else that the doctors could do to save him.. nothing left to be done except for prayers. At 11.00 am he went on life support machine cos he cant breath any more.. My heart broke when i heard the news.. part of me wants to see him leaving peacefully not wanting him to suffer on the bed dying slowly.. and another part of me wanna hold him so tight not wanna let him go as he was one of the close uncle we had in our family.. loosing him is like loosing a shine bright diamond.. But if God wanna take him away.. I pray that God take him and ends his suffering.. if he is meant to stay.. i wish he would stay healthy... but as doctors says there is no more hope and he is on life support.. i can just pray for the best.. God knows the best.. and God has always known whats will be.. i will be paying him a visit tomorrow morning.. Please stay strong uncle. just let me see u again at least.. i really wish i dont wanna wake up hearing a bad news as i really wanna see him before any bad news..


I am sad knowing im gonna be loosing my uncle... but at the same time.. i wish he will be placed in Jannah ( heaven ) with all those pious people.. and May God cleansed his soul and make him pure as a new born baby.. May god bless him with all his blessings.. and May God give him the strength to go through his last breath smoothly...  Uncle you have been the best friend and an uncle to me.. U have been the funniest entertainer in our family.. ur jokes.. ur funny sms, ur IQ test and also your magic show will always remain in my heart forever.. tho i have never said this to u personally.. I do love you as much as my own father.. you are a real happy go lucky person ive ever seen.. God bless you wherever you are.. 

Please pray that he will be blessed no matter what is his destiny..

A funny Little Thing Just did happen a few weeks ago

Hellow everyone .... that was kind and sweet enuff for you guy to click actually take your time off and click on my blog :) thanks for your the time you guys spent reading on the crap im writing :) tho i am not a good writer.. ill try to not lengthen this blog :)

~~ Behold !!!  one the most funniest and weirdest headline ever ~~ 

A MAN WAS KICKED OUT FROM A COUNTRY BECAUSE HE WAS **TOO HANDSOME**

OK!! some of you may be thinking that ... wadaheck? and its not true~~ but believe me.. i was just like you.. Confused..~.~ how could this be ??? been kicked out from country cos of good looks??.. like Hello?? its a crime to be looking fantabulous??? like wow ~~ cut me some slack??? you really gonna send me away and shooing me out of ur country just cos i am good looking??? that doesnt even make sense~~ dude??? Its like he have to be humiliated and kicked out cos they are afraid women's might get pregnant just by looking at him ?? hahahah... im sorry dear frens.. no offense.. but i do find this ridiculously stupid.. cmon.. a women would actually like wat run hysterically towards him and ask him to marry her?? or they wud assume the girls will be fainting ( like the dramas in the movie ) when they just had one glance at him =.= Seriously??

Im a women.. yes we do adore and fancy guys good looking.. but hello! don't make assumption on how we will behave when we see a good looking guy!!! we are not from planets of APES that we are just having APES around us and ANGEL like him just came outta nowhere and seduce the hell out of us? like hello... come back to reality please


Saudi..ohhhh saudies~  Yes not all of SAUDI thinks like that.. Im sure only some minority people there.. But again How narrow minded could this people be?? so yeah back to the story... When i was chilling at my frens place... she was of course Arabian Girl :) she was like.. hey hey hey you wanna see something really stupid?? ( see thats why i say not all Arabs tho... ) And she was explaining to me on how this guy was so good looking and was sent back home cos of his good looks... i stare at her like for few second to actually absorb whatever she just said to me.. And  before i was shown the picture on how this guy must be looking.. here was wat went through my mind... This guy must looking something similar to this kinda type...

 

Okay thats exaggerating way to much ... tehee ^_^  Im sure by saying TOO handsome.. these people wont be the nearest to it =P

Maybe this Men In Black Down here

But to my surprise!! the moment my fren clicked on the image and typed **OMAR BORKAN AL GALA**

I din even freaking BLINK a second...I swear i was almost swallowed him alive by just looking at his images!! I never imagine he wud be this HOT! literally he was too hot that I started sweating! U see !! the heat from his HOTNESS!! damn :P I guess the dude is too hot that the Saudi's  are afraid that he will turn the whole country to desert probably! =P

This guy didnt even just seduce the hell outta me when i saw his face.. even the falcon was seduced!! hahaha YOU dont believe me :) no worries  .... in a while i will show u pictures that ghe falcon was staring at him :P just like how i wud stare if i was that upclose to his face :P


Yes yes i agree there are HOTTER mans on earth and he is not the HOTTEST! :) but oh well he got a good luck on that day he was kicked out! the next you know! THE WHOLE WORLD ( almost probably half of the world )  knows him.. thats what we call FAME OVER NIGHT! :P damn u lucky guy!! but anyhow :) he was the center of the news for few days :) I am not litterally dying over him or wat.. but i do agree on the fact that he is HOT! 

I am sure alot of others guys must be like!! OH YOU Girls call that HOT?? you are probably blind of something..or some will goes like... girls dont have better things to do and bla bla bla... :) so here on ill say :) yes we dont have better things to do :D yes we do think he is GOOD looking and yes i need to make the GOOD in CAPs so u understand :) and lastly leave him alone..let the boy gets whatever he could for few days at least :)


anyway i know ur eager to know how this SO HOT dude looks like... here i am not gonna blab any longer.. for mens :) dont be a hater.. and for ladies :) Enjoy :)

 

Did you see how the falcon was mesmerized and how its eyes widen up.. Oh I wish i was the falcon tho :P hahahhahha yes yes I am kidding! :P

Anyway im outta words or sentence :) tho i know he is not the Most good looking guy on this planet :) but

i do agree he is ONE of the most good Looking guy on this earth :D