TRUTH IN REALITY N LOVE

 THE FIGHT BETWEEN LOVE AND THE TRUE REALITY

After such a long tyme.. Now me start bloggin! :) good Day blogers.. and fellow readers.. :P sound soo formal outta sudden!!neway.. as im trying to figure out what topic shall i discuss about.. Little that i know..
I am totally out of it!! as for now.. My head seems to spin round and round with no direction to go..

Not that im having headache or stressed.. It is back again...rock bottom hard!! Heart broken! the one and only thing that can make any human, back to reality.. That is like a slap in the face or ill say a wakeup call.. to human saying.. Now that Love is done.. back to reality bitches! and yeah.. i am in that very same situation..

All those nice flying to the air ..falling in love.. where all seems OH-SO-PERFECT tyme has came to an end!. and lets face it.. No one like this feelings... who wud wan the depression, anger, sadness, guilty, disappointment and all combine in ONE! heart broken..  Eventually that will surely happen when you fall in Love! yeah i know some LUCKY BUNCH OF PEOPLE get to marry whom they choose to.. But i am so not in that category of LUCKY PEOPLE.. as much as i want to be with the one i LOVE so much.. I know the tyme has came to an end..

As for now.. I am in a dilemma .. TO love a person and to Marry someone Else.. It is Not as easy as you think it is.. Loving someone so dearly.. thought of marrying that very same person.. But unfortunately..that HINDI DRAMA  will never end in my STORY.. family will disagree and we will have to follow what is right and what is wrong need to be avoided.. All those Drama of mine is starting at this very MOMENT! 

I wont say that my family is wrong in choosing the guy for me..as i know they only choose the best for me.. but what about my feeling..what about my happiness.. I might love the one i end up marrying..but what if i did not LOVE him.. what if i am not going to like him.. what will happen to me? Its not like i can marry 4 and i can choose others if i am not happy with 1.  But at the same time..what will happen if i marry the one i LOVE.. and we end up having a big fight and the love will soon be FADE.. 

MOM always say she married a person whom she never was given an opportunity to fall in love with and end up loving him now as she is growing old with him.. BUT mom.. nowdays life is totally different.. We are in a new ERA where everyone has already been given the freedom to LOVE..how would i feel to marry someone when I clearly have no feelings to.. Maybe the feelings MIGHT develop..what if it didnt? whom shall i go to then? This is a decision of a lifelong.. Not temporary..but the rest of MY LIFE...

Sometimes in life you have to let go the only one person you hold closely to you heart.. Because that one person deserve to be happy.. If it ever came back to you means it was meant for you..But if it never return..just take it as it was not written for you.. I am now starting to understand the terms..NOT ALL THAT YOU LIKE YOU WILL GET IT.. i am slowly absorbing all these in this tiny little brain of mine..in hope that i would somehow find the inner peace with whoever that is chosen for me.. But i do hope i would fall in LOVE AGAIN and i would be able to live the rest of my life peacefully.. NOT in regret..not in tears and not in frustration.. LIFE is short.. i agree..

 Life is too short and once in a lifetime.. So I think we should just. LIVE IT,,LOVE IT,,ENJOY IT,,ENDURE IT.. FEEL IT, BELIEVE IT,, MAKE IT,, CHERISH IT.. till the last of your breath...

Taboo againts Criticizing religion! :)

Here I am again, trying to squeeze the **Not so very BIG** brain of mine to come out with new topics or blab about just something to past my time. So as how the previous blog was about the EMPTINESS lets start fresh with sumting tat was really bothering my head and i guess i am now ready to talk about it.. For some this Issue might Be sensitive, and for some.. this issue might be something normal. I guess for me.. this issue kinda like both sensitive but normal ( is that even possible?? to combine?? :P huuu o.O (shrugs)

I would advise for those who strongly believe in arguing over the matter and dont find it interesting in accepting others thought or view on an issue ..please feel free to click the X mark on the page... I dont want you to judge me by my blog.. Just because i might have a diffrent point of view from yours.. As i said.. im not in this world to live to your expectation..im here to live to mine :) so if you think ull be ok with this sensitive subject..feel free to explore this page with me together :) 

My main topic is mainly a Question actually :

When are we going to get past this taboo against criticizing religion???

Before we kill each other over religion.. Have we really sit and thought about what exactly is Religion??? 
No one cared enuff to even find the similarity of each n every religion but they are soooo freaking concern on finding faults on each other... Why?? It's becoming more and more popular to argue that there is something fundamentally inappropriate or intolerant about criticizing religion and religious beliefs ....I wanna really know what is really goin on inside their **small brain** like seriously ???.. When they start comparing like this and finding faults on each others religion, that's when all the problems arise... 

Religion is as simple and in general ..BELIEVING IN ONE GOD... 

When are we going to get past this taboo against criticizing religion??? when are we gonna Realize it doesn't matter what you said or do.. a Religion WONT Vanish, Banned or even Disperse from this earth... Have you ever heard any Religion disappeared and Never was heard again?? NOOO!!!Nothing you do or say that will change this.. So wats the point spending countless of hours on cursing and mocking other religions for?? Because of uneducated individuals that have no freaking idea on how express their mentally disturbed life and they cant seem to understand the very tiny little small message that RELIGION can be portrayed as a mere “preference,” something over which disagreement is pointless... and they tend to ignore these statement and still go with their retarded sick headed mind.   

"If we knew better, if only we knew more about each other’s religions maybe we would have come to respect and recognize that we have a lot more to share thn to denounce n hate each other for"

HOW MUCH DO U THINK U KNOW ABOUT UR OWN RELIGION BEFORE U START CRITICIZING ON OTHER RELIGIONS CLAIMING YOU RELIGION IS PERFECT??

For me as i am growing in Malaysia, I am born with all those people from diff culture, race and religion. I have been schooling with them, eat lunch with them, studied in school , played games during recess.. sitting exams next to them.. spending my whole freaking growing up time with them. And it hurts to see despite that brother and sisterhood life we have spent together, we still tend to have hatred among each other. So what if he is black, or the other one is brownish, some are yellow or others a pale off white. So what if some goes to mosque and some goes to temple while others goes to diff places to pray and some dont pray at all ( atheist )..People are now obsessed with BRANDING each other by their religion. It seems it doesn’t matter anymore who you are, what you do and how good you do it. 

 It is vital now to know what kind of religion you adhere to..People began to categorize each other by their religion, hate each other because of their religion and may be even kill each other by the name of their religion. Armageddon is definitely underway. (( not that im hoping for it anyway.. but who knows rite? ...oh ok..back to the topic again ))


I would make my whole LONG essays as simple as an example of music.. Music is commonly a Universal Language of Mankind.. am i right??? Same goes to religion.. (is not im saying religion is like music.. im just makin it as an example ) ... anyway.. Some people like oldies.. some of them loves rock.. some likes hip hop..and some others like Techno or R&B and so on... If you are in a room full of people from diffrent parts of the country.. I am not expecting each and everyone in the room to like Techno just because i do love techno ( by the way I DO LOVE TECHNO..n seriously u guys shud try listen to it ) :D ----> back to wat the message was again... So yeah.. i am not expecting EVERYONE to love Techno just because I LOVE IT.. i cant go to those who love oldies and tell them NO YOU CANT HEAR IT.. ITS STUPID and the songs are all really bad.. You are dumb and those who did the OLDIES SONGS SHUD ROT IN HELL??

Yeah.. you dont see that happening in MUSIC UNIVERSAL LANGUAGE OF MANKIND situation do u.. You rarely see people fighting till they want to kill each other just because they have diff preference on Music.. you dont see them fighting and not talking to each other just because your best fren likes RAPPING and you love Rock songs.. But some even sit down and try to make a song when they cud at least combine Rock and Rap and make it interesting.. These are the LACK OF what we have in each human being. For us Music is just music but religion is .. OMG how can u NOT love my religion and you are worshiping your God in that way.. o.O !!! Dude!! i am NOT born in this world to love what YOU LOVE..or believe in what YOU BELIEVE IN... I have my own Preference and i have my own way to see things..at the end of the day its my life anyway.. But yeah all i can do is to respect you and your believes as you respect mine.  

AS FREAKING SIMPLE AS THAT!!!!! 

My point is.. everyone is not the same.. They might believe in things which might not seems right to you..or they might do things that might be funny for you in your religion..BUT SO WHAT??? let it be.. If he dies.. he will die with his believes.. and tat is nothing to do with you.. So STOP poking your nose on what other people believes in or do... Its their own life..let them live as it is.. If you pray in a mosque or temple.. Dont expect everyone to pray with you just because you are praying there and you think its right thing to do.. What would you do if the others do the same to you..expecting you to pray at their place and believe in what they do.. would you like it then???


All this cursing, fighting, killing and burning sacred prayers places wont do any good. If you burn it down.. it dosent mean u defeated the religion... You have just shown HOW FREAKING STUPID you are in public... because that is not causing any damage to any religion... by doing all that doesnt make people stop believing in what they believe in.. Its up to the individual to decide what they want in their life. 

Who are you first of all to judge?? Who are you to decide what people shud believe in?? Who are you to give orders to KILL people because YOU feel they are wrong???  The job of taking a life away is only given to GOD.. because he is our Creator, he creates us and only He can take our life.. If you want to do anything the least u can is punishment.. NOT KILLING each other.. 

NO GOD IN ANY RELIGION ALLOWS YOU TO KILL WHOEVER YOU WANT WHENEVER YOU FEEL LIKE IT!! 


So please.. i might not be right for some of you.. I might not even be wrong to some of you.. I DON'T CARE!! this is my opinion and this is what I BELIEVE IN!! and i don't need anyone's permission to allow me to think the way i do now. =) Life is how we should SIT ALL TOGETHER and think of how to improve it.. don't look at the colors of the skin, the race or even religion, love each other as it is.. God creates this world temporary.. it would be the end of the world SOMEDAY..why destroying the only ONE WORLD we have for the sake of seing who will win the battle at the end.. Cos there is no WAY of anyone will win over the war of RELIGION... no matter what you burn, whom u curse.. whatever you do.. No one will ever win ..there will always be people who will love what they believes in.. and there is nothing the haterz can do or say about. We will be pissed when people start crtizing .. YES!! i agree.. but fighting with them just made u look as low as them.. because Haterz wont stop hating... why u even bother to dirty your hand and waste ur time? All you should do is turn back to the One and ONLY GOD you have and pray that the hearts of those haterz to be cleansed and purified not with hate..but with love... And that makes you a real RELIGION believer.. cos you believe that GOD will punish those who are bad and will reward those who are good.. You cant cover the mouth of haterz.. You cover one.. the other will open..and when u run there to cover the other one mouth.. the other one will open.. and you want to continue this life long??? It will never stop... The only way for them to stop is ..by just IGNORE and let them play their sick mindless game until they are bored..Dont show you care.. Give them your Back when they start to insult. 

I am tired of writting so long! Hand is aching now.. its a never ending topic i wud say... If given 200 days, I still wont be able to finish this..

Last but least all i want to say is.. Spread the love..Not the hate.. Accept each other just the way you want to be accepted by others..and most important is RESPECT each other as a human in a whole. Let the haterz keep hating and the LOVERS keeps Loving :) share the word and you'll find your inner peace

EMPTYNESS OF BRAIN EXERCISE

Here we Go again~ Back to Blogging blogers.. Well Well well.. been such a Long Off days off bloggin, and now I am Back ..Hopefully I dont whine as much as i do before :) and please just ignore my spelling or maybe rusty language usage as it has degraded since couple of months not bloggin! :) Last but not Least ..Hows Everyone Doin!! :P <--- sumtimes i feel like im on a stage rather than just bloggin :P i actually do hope i have Audience to read my blogs~! :P not tat its interesting or anyting :P cos Its full Of crap :D 

Who On Earth wanna read a bLog based on facts and political Issues.. or any other ongoing (WORLD) issue.. cmon! i can get all i wan In FacebOOk! :D its like the second generation of WikiPedia.. Who said we learn alot in WIKIPEDIA.. :) I would say I learn to know  about world more in Facebook~ :P 

back to Wat am I suppose to bLog today!! huh i Love to go out of topic sumtimes.. emmm =.= okay.. i mean Most of the time! Darn it.. see Here we go again!! ><" i think this might be the Coffee that i drank that kept me awake when all I want to do is Sleep!!... yah i Can be stupid too sumtimes drinking coffee when i know i need to sleep~ bUt oh Well... Im out of the topic again people!!! <---u guys are distracting me u see :P its not my fault ( 0.o ) im innocent  (",) 

So honestly.. I wana tell that i really have no topic to discuss today.. I just in the mood of exercising my fingers.. to train my fingers well so it might one day do me good :P hehehe ^__^ well If i Have to choose a topic then.. i wud wanna choose the topic of (EMPTYNESS IN BRAIN)

So yeah the topic is all about how empty someone's brain is at this moment of time.. and yeah that sumone is me :) Sometimes is good to have an empty brain because it needs to rest for once a while! u saw wat happen to Einstein after using most part of his brain! he looks so miserably OLD...and worn out.. <-- oh wait!! he was old when he passed away din he? ummm but tats not the point.. U see the point is.. im trying to point out ..someting that is very... Ummmm!!! mmmmm??? mmmm??? hhhmmmm?? =.= sumtin very pointless seriously ><"


Well how do u know.. Even without any topic to discuss about.. I have already written almost 6 paragraph..! :P thanks for those who are still reading this.. But i have to say.. U really wasted like 5 minutes of ur life reading this POINTLESS blog :D but anyway .. as how i am exercising my finger.. you are exercising ur eyes.. :P and u just had those EMPTY BRAIN moment like mine :) Congrats :D  ^___^  I will try to come up with sumting POINTY next time around... ( omg am i allowed to even use POINTY???) hahah who cares anyway :D heheheh   
Have a nice Days BLOGERS! :P Youve just finish a moment of this CRAPPY BLOG :) and i congratulate you with your patient :) You guys are truly one of a kind :) now Go back to your work :D And i will Go back to my EMPTY BRAIN :) see ya laterz Haterz :)

Perfect is always about being Imperfect

Its been ages since i last did a blog and blab about life or at least things that is bothering my mind..Guess today will be the chosen day for blabbing since i have nothing else to do :) as usual :D Well lately I take a walk around in the park.. sit n think of what is my destination or what will it be that my life will be heading towards... Anyway... i might sumhow find my self one day.. i guess i need all those patient to carry on now without any destination.. Its just that i have those 4 lanes in front of me with different path which i dont even know which of it i want and which of it i should choose.. so basically.. i guess ill just wait for a sign from God that i might sumhow find where do i stand one day :)

Sooooo new things in life for now.. nothing much changes.. some people come some people goes.. as normal.. :) life rotates really fast, things swrilling around me in a phase which i cant even catch... i am trying to run when all i wanna do is walk... im try to cope when all i wanna do is just sit back and relax... Living my life with my frens.. my dear ones.. and people who i adore and look up too...for those who are remaining in my life.. thanks for still coping with me as i know im a hard to handle person..

I think boldly.. i talk loudly.. I am messy person, Iam transparent and I do not eat with my mouth close... i chew food with sound.. i walk on the road barefooted sometimes.. my hair is not always in place, i might have my make up smudge on my face when im literally tired... my closet is not full of designer clothes.. I don't plaster on a smile when im unhappy.. I don't fake around.. I show you my real self cos I always believes that honesty is the best policy... People might find me rude cos i speak my mind... people might find it absurd when i comment on what i dont like.. or people will find it disturbing knowing i have a past life which is not what they wanted to hear...

I'm not perfect, I never tried to be. I've made mistakes. I've taken the easy way out. I've lied once in a while. I've said things that I didn't mean to when im angry. I'm no better than anyone, anywhere. I'm human. I have faults, and I'm not afraid to admit that. I want to change, but I won't. Because that's what we do. That's what we've always done. We list our faults like a grocery list, and we move on, expecting everything to somehow change itself. It never will. I will never change. I will never be perfect. I will always make mistakes.

This is my life.. its better i tell the truth than hide behind those veils of lies... i don't wanna be judge cos of my past... I wanna be known for my present and what ill become in my future.. People with narrow minds will never understand.. its always easy for u to point out mistakes of others because of their past.. have u ever sat down and give a thot about ur own past?? how would u feel people start criticizing you cos what happen in ur past when u urself have such a horrible one?? sometimes it just dosent really seems fair.. but hey! this is life right? :)

Every-bodies finger is not the same size.. they might have a different ways,, they dont walk, talk, think and believe in the same thing.. they do what they think its right.. they do it with thier heart.. but people tend to misunderstood... ""being transparent isnt something good"" **thats what my mom said.. but Mom... that is how God made me.. i am born with a brain and heart just like others.. but God gives me characteristic that is based on what i believed in && that is what makes me Shafareena.... and yes.. i dont think like others, i dont talk like them.. i dont hide things and i am straight forward.. cos that is what differentiate me from the rest.. I cant change that just to satisfy the other people.. at least i have the guts to face and tell them about my weaknesses ... cos im not afraid on how they judge me.. and Mom.. i want a person to be with me sincerely and i want a person to accept me fully .. not FAKE and sweet at the beginning but then just ran away like the others without confronting anything... its just too childish....

I want them to love me for who I am.. not for who I'm NOT....

I'm not perfect, but I'm ME!

If they are not comfortable with me.. i never force anyone to stay... I must admit im not the BEST among all.. i tend to do alot of mistakes.. i tend to create alot of scene.. i might be spoiled brat as some called me.. and i might seems to be too transparent.. Well.. that is me.. i come in package.. i didn't present myself to you saying Im perfect and accept me.. I present myself to you as Beautifully imperfect I am... but whatever people say, and criticize me of being to Honest... In the name of God.. I will NEVER EVER change that cos that is what i am... I am honest and im not afraid of what people gonna say... Cos Allah said.. being honest is the way in Islam.. Lying will always brings trouble.. If people nowadays feels they wanna hear lies and live with it.. than Mom im sorry.. im not part of that society... Even tho my honesty is something that i might not be proud of... But at least i have the courage to face what people got to say to me... At least i know that Allah is there to show me human faces on how fake they can be :) but I am me.. I will never change ... Ill keep my heart for the one who can accept me the way i am with my weaknesses.. cos i am just simply imperfect....

First Blog 2012

Woow.. Been a long time since i last blog.. Guess the workload is taking its toll on me!! >> waittt.. yeahhh right!! Im in night shift!! and as if in nite shift i do anything other than just sleeping eating.. sleeping reading novels.. eating n facebooking ( not mentioning FB is getting seriously boring nowdays) but yeah!!! i have no idea why the hell i just din bother to open the blog space and start mumble something.. :) but anyway now i am so... I guess is not a big deal after all :D

Well well well.. This wud be my first Blog in 2012... And yeay me! i have no freaking idea on what to write about at all.. Is not tat 2012 is a bad beginning for me !! to come to think of it.. as i was soo excited about it last year that 2011 was ending.. i didnt really feel any difference with 2012 arriving!! other than hearing everyone else whining about the so called END OF THE WORLD 2012.. What a bunch of losers you guys are!! anyway i will surely be ready with popcorn and ill take the BEST SEAT ever at my window ( now i wish i have a pent house cos of the view would be more nicer than my own room window... DamN! --- but anyway.. yeah.. ill be ready to watch and laugh out loud when 31st reach and if its still not END OF thE World.. ill Laugh soo loud that i think my eye might pop up from my head ... cos what i can say.. THE STUPIDITY of human sometimes have no limits.. when they gets to be real total dumb.. They prone to take advantage of it and humiliate themselves in front of the whole world :) Not to mention making an embarrassing statement such as.. Oh That was based on assumption last year when i really thot it wud be END OF WORLD...

Hello dude!! if u really know all that.. rather than bloody preaching about how this world is gonna end.. Go try do some charity works that can actually make a place for u in heaven.. Preaching about how end of the world is coming till it comes not gonna build itself a stairs for u to heaven u doink! hahahah Anyway.. Nostradamus and all those believers really can prove their stupidity soon enuff :) Conspiracy is YET to COME :) BEHOLD my fellow believers :P ull be proven on How small ur brain is to compare to the size of a torties head....

Anyway since i really have no idea what i jst mumbles just now :) i think i dont wanna make my 2012 First blog as a insulting blog :) so yeah.. ill just end it here :D anyway .. for those who just started their life journey !! :) Hope u have a blessed and memorable year ahead!! :)

And those that are single still!! Go out.. find a date.. go find a blind date.. Go meet ur FB frens.. Or go make frens around :) no one knows that in those one of ur **suppose to be frens list ** sumone might fall for u for who u are :) and u might just end up being not single anymore but double :) but a small reminder!!! :) dont force wats not urs.. Let it be.. if it ever come back.. means it belongs to you :) if it never does means !! :) go on alone.. cos one day u might step or bump into a man of ur life without u even realizing it :) soo patient is what god Loves the most in all of human being heart!! :) so be patient ull get the BEst Out Of whole Lot !! cos u patiently waiting :) soo ENJOY ur life as it is. Have nice time to urself and pamper urself alot :) but dun go beyond limit of having time of ur life :) XoXO From me for nw.. Till I bloG Again!! :)