*** such a blurry lurry day ***

woke up in the morning.. grab my towel and heading to the toilet wit eyes half close.... just as the water touches my face...... ~~ITS THURSDAY~~ =.=!! im suppose to go to work at 12 midnite, and i was ready to shower at 10 am.. =) and yes it was too little too late, that when my face was soaking with water.. my eyes wasnt half asleep anymore..~~ grab the towel.. and head back to bed.. instead of sleeping back..
Here i am.. writting this blog... all thanks to my stupid alarm clock tat woke me up sooo early... Thanks to my neighbors dog tat was barking too much cos of the mailman i guess.. Thanks to my brain that is not tat sharp.. thanks to my problematic brain always having difficulties to remember CALENDER ( i had to ask my maid wat day was it ) .. and thanks to my stupid Shift schedule for this week... to all of u guys tat is laughing out there.. ** i know sum of u experienced the same thing.. especially those who works in shift ** anyway... heads still feels heavy, hearts still feels sober.. Love still remain unsatisfied, Heart is remaining broken.. thanks to the word we call LOVE n SACRIFICES.. but yeah.. u know i believe in KARMA.. wat goes around will always come back around.. so please beware to those who breaks peoples heart.. God wont Let u go tat easily.. just watch, Ur time will come.. and when u end up having heavy head and sober heart because of love.. tats when u will remember the amount of pain u caused the others by ur stupid behavior.. Its been almost 4 days, and i still feel somehow the same.. I feel i am moving on faster now, because when a person breaks u.. u just try to show them ur not broken even if u are.. but i guess for me.. i really did move on while playing the game of pretending to not feel broken.. It shud be a great news for me, cos i dun wanna spend my time crying for sumone tats not worth it..
Anyway.. morning report done.. will be back soon i guess~~ i wanna sleep back~~ 10.36 am ---- morning world.. Gud nite sha :)

This is My Twisted Love Story

Just about when everything seems to settle down in place and waiting for the right time to come.. thats when life take its toll in me , and turn 360 degree to bite me in the ass.. Great.. for all those time i spend for nothing.. now become just memories.. sometimes is good to hv sweet memories.. but all i can think about at this time is the memories that I WISHED i had.. but i didn't...

Why issit soo hard for a guy to understand me.. why issit so hard for them to fulfill my needs like i fulfilled theirs.. why issit so hard for them to make me happy like how i made them happy...why issit so hard for them to just love me the way i LOVE them..

It shatters my heart when u lie to me.. once or twice ill accept it.. but sometimes too much of it makes the relaitionship status to be broken.. our love is not as strong as it used to be.. my love has taken the energy out of me.. and all those i wasted on being sad and broken at last..
Issit fair for me..issit fair for my life.. What did i ever do to u to deserve wat ur doing to me..
what didnt i give u when u just utter a word.. I took care of u when ur sick.. i took care of u when ur hungry.. i took u go around so u wont be bored... i care for ur feelings more than mine, i get scolded from my family just cos of u... I got letter from my office just cos i wanted to spend more time with u... there is more than tat i did in my life that it will take the rest of ur life to pay me back...but nevermind... u never appreciate my love.. u never took me as a lover.. all u see me as ws just a gf to u.. which has no value in ur eyes.. tats why u can lie and lie to me.. u can make fool out of myself.. is ok..


Just because i treated u with love, care, sweetness and tender love.. doesnt mean u have to treat me like rubbish, lie to me like i have no feelings.. anyway.. god is great.. Allah has always make us meet the wrong person in life that when we met the right one.. we will learn to appreciate it.. but i guess.. Allah also wants me to see, sweetness in the tongue can never replace a real LOVE because what u hear is not what you see.. And i wish that i hear less and i see more..But my love story is a twisted love story.. my love story ends in hatred.. my love story ended not by loving each other to let go.. but my Love story ended because of the selfishness of a person, and because of lies.. because of No more Trust..My love story is not a story ill be proud to tell my family or grandchildren about..my love story is just a plain simple story that ended up in pain n sorrow..

How i wish it didnt end.. but how i wish it ended earlier so i wouldn't have felt this way.. i wouldn't have felt this lie and i wouldn't have felt this much of hurt... thanks to **you know who u are** for taking me when i was down and covered me by ur hugs, who showed me love and caring, and who showed me the love.. but at the end.. threw me back on the floor and break my shattered heart to smaller pieces.. and at the end.. spit on the love with lies and walk away..... tat is my love story.... thanks to u .. im back to where i started.. and this time.. no one will touch me to make me stand .... ill make u guys watch, how i can stand back up.. and never ever will i turn back to look at my past.. U are my past.. ull remain in my past..


its my time to walk away now.. ill take my life and the heart u broke with me.. ull never see me anymore.. u never will.. keep my good memories with u cos all left of u are the memories that u spoiled.. all made of u are those memories that u spit on.. I will take my shattered dream with me.. ill be alone for now.. thanks for all those hurt u gave me as replacement of all those love i showed u.. thanks for all the time u broke my heart as replacement for the time i heal ur heart... thanks for making me cry more than before and thanks for the newly fresh wound u stabbed in my heart.... Goodbye forever

QUOTE FOR NOW? QUOTE FOR LIFE?

Well.. well.. well.. Lets start on my area of interest.. :) i Love quotes.. My life surrounded by quotes.. U can call me QUOTE FREAK... cos i like when i read some quotes and how it resemble my on my feeling at that point of time.. How i feel like.. YAHH... Tats it,, this is wat exactly im feeling.. :) and when the words was put up in such a way.. it made it more interesting.. :) soo yeap! :) here i am to share some of the quotes tat attract my eyes :)

For now i guess this much of Quotes i can pass on to you.. Hope u enjoy with multiple diffrent kind of quotes.. some of them really do make sense :) anyway its kinda late ... tomorrow working ..sigh wat a day wud it be.. such a burden.. whyyyy do we have to work!!! arghhH!! i really do wish my fairytale story wud come true where money cud be plucked from the tree.!!! grrr... wer can i find these kind of tree!!! boooo hooo =( anyway.. gud nite bloggers... :)

Back On Track

Back again after ages... its been such a long time, guess my English n also grammer error will be really obvious.. :) anyway keep aside on my rusty english.. Im here not for exams :P

Im here to blab more about my life.. !!!! my current life im living in.. Working in HSBC has taken all my energy till grey hair is growing on and on making its way thru my skull....well for the first time in history of ma own life.. i kinda have NOTHING to say... its kinda weird cos if anyone who knows me personally will find it really awkward not hearing anything from my mouth that they call it HITZ.fm... 24 hours around the clock.. :P

Anyway what new in my life.. Let me think?? mmmm?? mmm??? a longer MmmMMmMmMm??
I guess everyting seems to be the same.. i still do talk nonstop.. im still taller than anyone in anyplace.. im still tan skinned.. im not getting any thinner by the way.. i still hate to go work in the morning.. i love cats alot ... ice cream is still my medicine for flu, fever, anger and happy moments. I suck in babysitting.. shopaholic.. can spend hours on walking around and do absolutely NOTING :) Loves to tease people and make fun on em.. Im sophisticated and sometimes hard to be understood.. I walk and talk at the same time.. I often laugh my lungs out hysterically without giving a damn on other that are passing by.. I go crazy when im with my girls.. I love Gossips.. i love people who loves me.. and im really cranky at times :) :) well yeap!! guess its still the same old same old me :)


Well since im getting my fingers exercise on this keyboard.. i think one of the best way im gonna ever improve my writting will be this page it self :) awesome.. found my own lucky spot where i cud curse, praise, be happy, be sad, be angry and do anyting i wanna do :) ...

Till then!! :) will surely do write soon enuff !! :)