THE FIGHT BETWEEN LOVE AND THE TRUE REALITY
After such a long tyme.. Now me start bloggin! :) good Day blogers.. and fellow readers.. :P sound soo formal outta sudden!!neway.. as im trying to figure out what topic shall i discuss about.. Little that i know..
I am totally out of it!! as for now.. My head seems to spin round and round with no direction to go..
Not that im having headache or stressed.. It is back again...rock bottom hard!! Heart broken! the one and only thing that can make any human, back to reality.. That is like a slap in the face or ill say a wakeup call.. to human saying.. Now that Love is done.. back to reality bitches! and yeah.. i am in that very same situation..
All those nice flying to the air ..falling in love.. where all seems OH-SO-PERFECT tyme has came to an end!. and lets face it.. No one like this feelings... who wud wan the depression, anger, sadness, guilty, disappointment and all combine in ONE! heart broken.. Eventually that will surely happen when you fall in Love! yeah i know some LUCKY BUNCH OF PEOPLE get to marry whom they choose to.. But i am so not in that category of LUCKY PEOPLE.. as much as i want to be with the one i LOVE so much.. I know the tyme has came to an end..
As for now.. I am in a dilemma .. TO love a person and to Marry someone Else.. It is Not as easy as you think it is.. Loving someone so dearly.. thought of marrying that very same person.. But unfortunately..that HINDI DRAMA will never end in my STORY.. family will disagree and we will have to follow what is right and what is wrong need to be avoided.. All those Drama of mine is starting at this very MOMENT!
I wont say that my family is wrong in choosing the guy for me..as i know they only choose the best for me.. but what about my feeling..what about my happiness.. I might love the one i end up marrying..but what if i did not LOVE him.. what if i am not going to like him.. what will happen to me? Its not like i can marry 4 and i can choose others if i am not happy with 1. But at the same time..what will happen if i marry the one i LOVE.. and we end up having a big fight and the love will soon be FADE..
MOM always say she married a person whom she never was given an opportunity to fall in love with and end up loving him now as she is growing old with him.. BUT mom.. nowdays life is totally different.. We are in a new ERA where everyone has already been given the freedom to LOVE..how would i feel to marry someone when I clearly have no feelings to.. Maybe the feelings MIGHT develop..what if it didnt? whom shall i go to then? This is a decision of a lifelong.. Not temporary..but the rest of MY LIFE...
Sometimes in life you have to let go the only one person you hold closely to you heart.. Because that one person deserve to be happy.. If it ever came back to you means it was meant for you..But if it never return..just take it as it was not written for you.. I am now starting to understand the terms..NOT ALL THAT YOU LIKE YOU WILL GET IT.. i am slowly absorbing all these in this tiny little brain of mine..in hope that i would somehow find the inner peace with whoever that is chosen for me.. But i do hope i would fall in LOVE AGAIN and i would be able to live the rest of my life peacefully.. NOT in regret..not in tears and not in frustration.. LIFE is short.. i agree..
