WHat Is Life???

Here i am again.. finding a peace of my mind while blogging about my life and what its all about.. Sometimes is weird in how we can actually talk to something call a **virtual wall** where we dont have the guts in the real world to face the people and talk to them about what exactly is the feelings inside.. Ive came to notice that nowdays people talk to machine more than humans.. (anyway im just blending in as that is what they call TECHNOLOGY).. So here i am talking to my machine which sounded like i am a maniac but who cares anyway ( you too do the same dont ya? )

back to the topic.. kinda found something interesting to blab about for a while... What LIFE is all about? Hope to really make a good moral story... im not a good writer.. but here is where i practice my talent tho! :) hope u guys life this story im going to share ...

WHAT IS LIFE ??

What is life? anyone can answer you with their own theory of what life is based on their life experience.. so here i am.. stating what life is about from My point of view. what is life in my own dictionary..

Life is something that is given by God to us with trust that we will Obey him truthfully enough not to jeopardize our life but to build a better one.. Got to admit that everyone have their own set of life... and everyone is having their own life which might not be similar to one another.. but whatever you do in ur life no matter good or bad will be still counted by God in so many way.. As some of them believe there is God and some that don't believe in the existence of God at all. There is a little story on how i wanna put it out whats my point of view in life..


so here we go! God has created a whole bunch of people in this world and sat them down in front of a huge banquet table filled with hamburgers pizzas, lasagna and all those luxurious food.. and as all of them are very hungry and tempted to eat all those luxurious food, all thinking of having extra portion from each other.. having those thought like ( ill have that bigger pizza portion, the one on the left looks smaller) >> or some will be saying.. i shall take 2 pizza as one is not enough.. But little that they know that god has neglected to give them elbows.. every time they tried to eat and get the food to reach their mouth, their hands were too far away. And since there is no elbow they cant manage to get the food to the mouth.... Eventually after trying and trying they got sooo frustrated and they gave up... cursing and saying that God is cruel for not giving them elbows and God is not doing the job properly.they blamed God, and grow angry and resentful, and end up deciding not to believe in Him at all. Its is not that god wants to see you suffer.. but people tend to not understand that when life hits u hard and gives u the worst thing you could ever imagine.. you should show life how to get back up and punch it right back at the face of life.. that you can do it.. Not that you should give up.. People tend to not understand this much about life.. all they want is the easy way out in everything they have.. all they ever need is shortcut to everything.. Life is about how you manage it.. God never promised you a good life or a bad one.. he just chucked you out here to go and GET ONE!! you make it good or bad.. by how u think and react.. If we do not understand why we are suffering,when will we realize that behind everything there is always something good out of it.. think in a creative ways on how to face your so called endless suffering..


so yeah back to the story again about those elbow-less bunch of people that was not accepting the fact that all those luxurious food was just at the table and they cant seems to get it into their mouth..As they were busy cursing and complaining on how their life will be much better if they had elbow..and thinking of whats the point of giving them all those pizza's, lasagna and cakes if they cant even eat it Because if you really do think creatively on how to react to those events that happens in ur life.. than not having an elbow to eat doesn't stop you from eating.. God always create something with the goodness in his eyes for all of us.. there is intrinsic dignity something of great worth sitting before those that suffer.. Because if you look closely.. The only thing you should be doing was to move from your seat and reach out on your elbow-less arms across the table to pick up the food from one another plates and just feed each other.. That is what human eyes cant see how great and compassion God had created, but we are too blind to even take a step back to realize that everything happens for a good reason.. all we ever think is how to fill our stomach with food that we forgot that if we filled others stomach with food others will fill your stomach as well.. Life is not only about you and yourself.. is about how we all together build lives with each other.. like the term of (sharing is caring ) >>> not everything is eligible for sharing is caring.. im not expecting you to say that to your boss that sharing is caring so ur wife is mine!! cos that will surely cost u ur JOB.. and dont ever blamed me cos of ur dumb misinterpretation on Sharing is caring okay! :)



I may not be perfect, i may also whine in life ( most of my time actually ) but there is a point of time when i stop blaming others and even god for making me who i am today.. Because i believed he gave me a LIFE.. Its up to me how to deal with mine. Misfortune doesn't mean that God love you less and love others more.. Misfortune means, God loves u so much to see how much will u reach out for what u need in life. and god will love u the most when ur misfortune and still helping those unfortunate to build their life together with yours... and i always believe at the end of every human story.. is always a happy ending... and if there is no happy ending in ur life... means god will repay you back at the end of the world.. So when life kicks u hard on ur butt.. and eventually will make u fall flat face down on the ground.. Step back up.. dust yourself and just say "bring it on baby.. this isnt over yet " and continue.. That is the only way.. ull gain respect from others as well... Anyway, this is how i see life as.. You dont have to run a race to win.. You dont have to always race to be the top of others.. its always about how many people that u bring up together with you on ur way up.. that wat life is all about.. this is what i want my life to be... the amount of people you helped in life are those that will help u in your life.. this is what life is... maybe not for you.. but it is for me :)

BACK TO MELAKA AND IM LOVING IT

well well.. finger exercising starting now~~~ :)

Since im missing my blogging soo much.. ive decided to take a small short break and start writing.. yeah i still know that no one bothers to read it anyway :) but who cares :D I enjoy writing and i guess im the only one reading it 1000 times :D and ill make my frens hear it ( by force tho ) :D
wat are frens for rite??? =P

Anyway.. Melaka Trip is really awesome.. giving two thumbs up for melaka~~ getting much more nicer day by day.. <--- jealous too because it was sucky when our batch was in Melaka.. Now seems everybody getting all this facilities that we never had before!! such a spoil brats all of the newbies!! Anyway .. About melaka.. ill start elaborating since i wanna avoid talking about my self all the time.. ( yeah i know sometimes i can be self obsess but i cant help it to love my self :P :P )

soo yeah~ Melaka.. my love of life.. the city i wish i can be brought up in since born.. city of calm and harmony.. very down to earth people around, sweet and helpful citizens... very very spontaneous lifestyle.. u can get dirty and muddy and no one bothers.. no one cares :) u can wear slipers and shorts .. and still no one will look in disgrace.. a place where i call HOME :) the love i have for this city and the people is just so unexplainable.. the simple life.. the simple people.. living life sharing and caring about others.. <--- seriously not exaggerating in any sense.. :) I JUST LOVE MELAKA..

Soo yeah.. enuff with all those mushy mushy feelings about Melaka.. i sounded gay for awhile :P
Back to me !! Melaka was really awesome.. weather was really cold ...and windy :) i loved it like nothing else matter ... KL is nothing to be even compared to Melaka.. for me.. KL is a busy city where i cant find any peace and quiet time for myself. I just feel like, its the perfect runaway from this busy city i was living in.. so yeah.. first day arrived here.. almost made me kissed the road and roll all over the road ( not to mentioned that the roads are pretty much empty most of the time tho ) but anyway .. yeah surely i din do that :) anway .. reached and went to pahlawan.. Makhota and ate in pak putra.. For all of u that dunno wat Pak Putra is ... Its the most AWESOMENESS shop in the whole Melaka.. ( for me again =P ) its a pakistani restaurant serving all those north indian / pakistani food... ill suggest u guys to try ( chicken hydrabadi, Bombay chicken , potato zeera, palak paneer and pasanda chicken ) My god.. The taste of heaven.. ( not tat ive tasted heaven before but still yeah AWESOMEE dude )

Anyway.. after that we went around to take pictures!! like Loads and loads and loadssss of pictures.. i guess till the camera eventually gave us a sign saying like.. if u dont shut me down.. ill shut ur life with a destroyed memory card and we will see then ) :P if camera can really talk.. i think the only thing i can hear it saying would be ENUFF sha , no matter how many shots u take.. ur still gonna look the same ... **FUGLY** sooo please... :P hahahhaha

Anyway.. i am dreaminggg and dreaming to get a DSLR!! my god.. the price for it is like half of my salary!!! damn!!!!! i guess i am gonna start collecting money for it!! :) it took me 3 months to collect for my phone :) i guess this will take at least 4 months!!! boohoo!! :) 4 more months.. insyallah ill buy a DSLR :) and then!!! I willll pose pose n pose n pose n pose n pose.. and i will pose again :P hahahhahahahhaa :P bad idea.. yeah i know!! but i am obsess of pictures :) I love pictures cos sometimes when im bored.. ill play all those pictures as a slide show and start remembering the sweet moment in my past.. with frens and crazy times ... those that can never be repeated but only can be cherished :) anyway.. who cares.. i like taking pictures is sooo my hobby.. if u think im a maniac :) than DAMN right u are.. i am a MANIAC :) a picture loving obsess maniac :D and i am sooo loving it tho!! :)

anyway.. my fingers is not catching up with my words from my mouth and mind.. its slowing down somehow.. :P anyway i guess im gonna start dreaming on my DSLR in my lalaland.. and u guys can also join me in my **imaginary dream photoshoot ** :) adios amigos :)

A morning Drama is wat i called it ~.~

so yeahhh.. I din go to the Genting trip i was **so called** looking forward too.. But who cares anyway... and yeah.. i am stuck with my best fren on the same bed sleeping next to each other where my face meets her legs.. and my leg at her face... i dont know why its been since our Uni life that we seems to sleep in that position tho~~ ( like heloo, we dont wanna end up kissing each other at nite while our faces meets.. and i rather kiss her feet.. <--- even tho i wished she washed it before sleeping ) looolx =P i know ull be reading this soon enuff ila :) meow?? :P hahaha

Anyway back to the story.. the drama of the year.. Early morning woke up and saw something on facebook.. **status of cos..** and runaway all the way downstairs ( eventually without even brushing my teeth yet or washed my face ) <-- and yea... u guys did this too once in ur life time right..~~ dun act all innocent and start doing that EWW face =.= ) .... anyway yeah.. grab the phone and start dialling ilah.. ** wat the hell happen to u bitch? <--- replied with tears (sob sob sob ) ....

Panicked a while listening to her Morning drama <--- who on earth wanna watch tv when i have a LIVE drama infront of me =P ... then made a few more calls.. and things didnt seem to get any better~~ damn ( i thought ) ... Genting trip was canceled due to our *morning drama* and I grabbed my towel.. <--- remembering i didnt even brushed my teeth ... showered and got ready.. went to my Besties house.. and spent a nite here listening to her sobs... T.T it was until the matter was fixed that she started to =) smile back <--- and believe me the smile like i've never seen before.. straigh right up to the ears kinda smile u know.. ( even tho it sounded like she looks like a freaking clown with that smile.. but i know deep down this bitch of mine is Happy :)

And yeah.. the morning drama Ended afternoon.. :P wasnt really a long dilemma that was dragged till a week or so~ :) anyway anyhow :) drama ended.. happy ending and ^__^ love story is back on track :)

For Nadia.. i wanna say sorry for not be able to make it up to Genting... I had to solve this dilemma of my besties.. and i know it somehow ruined ur birthday ( not that i think ull read this blog anyway .. just incase u did ) i wanna you to know.. im sorry .. and also on Ilah's behalf.. we are truly sorry... T.T forgive us.. sometimes shits do happen.. and we cant seems to figure out wat needs to be done.. but sometimes lesson will be learn for a life time due to just small problem.. :) tats wat i guess we learnt yesterday

Anyway back to our main story.. Genting was canceled yeah.. bo hoO~ but Melaka is still on.. and awesome.. i am looking forward for Melaka trip like forever.. Dear god.. Even tho im a nonesence and always not listening to u all the time.. please .. please do make my dream come true to go Melaka and have a blast... I sooo wanna go meet my frens.. visit my old house.. visit my lecturer and the old playground behind my old house.. and the shops that i always drag my feet and walk under the sun to.. And i wanna see how awesome the place became after i left it~~ ahhh sooo many memories.. so little time.. but watever it is.. a big HAPPY ME :)

Whoaa~~~ ive been blogging like Forever long~~ i think its not only MY MOUTH are the thing in my body system that cant seems to shut~~ i notice my finger too now~~ whoaa.. slowly one by one thing wont be shutting down, and ill end up beeing even more **pain in the ass ** not only by talking.. but typing too~ :) hehehe anyway is nice either i get to annoy ur ears.. or annoy your eyes for reading this lengthy essay :P hehe

So yeah.. ill stop for now.. even tho i wish i can wrote forever.. but time is not letting me too. need to shower <--n brush my teeth ( yeah i do facebook before washing my face or brushing my teeth ... WatsTheBiGDeal~ ) like u guys never do that before ;) anyway KL is waiting for me..
GTG bukit bintang and shop for stuff~ :) den straight to Melaka... BYe KL~ come Come Melaka..~~ Adios.. i am gonna shower now~~ Chowzz~

Cant seem to Sleep.. so blogging is the next best thing !!

Tossing and turning... been almost an hour now ~.~ serves me right for sleeping at the bloody wrong time..when will i ever learn that there is a reason they call it **sleeping time** because there is suppose to be a right **TIME** when ur goin to sleep.. Was super sleepy in office ><" end up snoring like a pig after work.. thot it wud be an hour nap.. but extended to damn 2 in half hour dangerously snoring deep sleep... Woww.. so much for a nap huh!! couldnt help it tho.. was really having my **landscape eyes on back then ** --> (-.-) Now that i cant sleep.. my best companian would be talking to this machine that we call Laptop.. for none watsoever reason...so the time passes by faster and without us knowing will be snoring on the keyboard while drooling all over it.. ** Yucks ><" ** now we know why most of the keyboard of laptops are the ones that always gets faulty first.. :P hahah


Dont u look at me with this kind of face =.= all of u!!! like u guys never actually slept on the keyboard before.. well i dont care! i did :) and im proud of it :) its a talent actually to sleep on that hard surface rather than ur comfy pillow.. and tell me how many of you are able to wake up finding marks of keyboard letters on ur face?? huh?? huh?? tell me?? how many of u?? :P hahahahaha.. <--- started to crap more cos i am really loosing it for not getting my slumber princess sleep tho! Well lets choose the topic to talk about.. mmm why do i sound like im in a freaking group discussion all of a sudden?? ><" ( back to reality with facts knowing - first- no one gonna read this shit && second -- no one gives a damn care anyway on wat im gonna blab ) -..- so yeah~~ i think ill ask myself for now :) **what topic should I choose ** hurmm~~~


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well at least i tried.. ~~ is just this tossing and turning is killing me softly~~ .. sheep is not anywhere around me that i can count.. remembering how mr bean counted sheep in his episodes not helping either.. it makes me laugh even more and now causes me to be more wide awake.. Anyway.. i guess since i barely have any topic.. and my head is sooooo out of tune with birds flying around.. i need my sleeeeeepp~~ if only i can program myself with C++ coding to shutdown my system for 8 hours.. it wud be something like this probably?


#include
using namespace std;
int main ()
system("shut down -s -t/8 hours = shafareena brainsystem");
return 0;



Okay im going way way way way way limitless crazy.. soo rather than making trouble for myself to use all these code.. i guess a hammer on my head will set me 8 hours straight.. not in deep sleep maybe.. but hey .at least hammer will knock me out eventually right :) who will do the honor :P ** pretend not to see anyone picking up their hand ** :) :) anway good nite... i sooo wanna sleep now please bring extra food cos im kinda hungry :) nenite~

Sleepy Meepy Day.. Lets start counting sheep ya'all

Morning bloggers...

Nothing great about this morning cos the only fact there is that im freakinglishly sleepy ><"

Anyone wanna do me the honour of slapping me thru the face to wake me up! i so am not in a mood to work today..!! there u go again sha!! early morning whine~~

I guess i have to change my name to Sha Whine-house ~ =.= ohh well~ anyway im kinda excited and looking forward for this great weekend gateway from all these nonsense .. as in work and waking up in the morning to just get stuck in the JAM for ever!!! this 9 days holiday would be the best.. i would sleep.. sleep.. sleep.. wake up eat.. n sleep ..sleep.. and eat while sleeping again... and sleep.. and shower? nah! skip :P hehehehhe

Genting will be in the list .. and right next to it will be Melaka~ :) awesome huh~~ Cant wait to actually go meet my frens back.. I am soo purely ZOMBIFIED here in KL.. its not i hate it soo much.. im just exaggerating on how i am assuming Melaka should be way way better than KL.. when the whole worlds knows thats impossible.!! anyway.. Melaka.. where i call my 2nd home.. is a place i kinda spend half of my adulthood in :) so Damn Bloody hell Yeah.. thats the coolest place for me!! =)

Well.. I am soo confused on what to buy for my frens Birthday~~ :) oh anyway happy Birthday Naddy =) God Bless You My Fair Princess :) and maybe u can help ur miserable sleepyhead fren to think of what should she buy for u .. for your birthday? :P cmon be a darling and help my sad ass here~ back to where i was again.. YEah~ we will be celebrating in Genting Highland~~

Hopefully i was in a good list in god's diary for this past few weeks so that he would grant my wish that it will be shinning bright and not even a slight rain in Genting.. so i can enjoy my ride.. not worrying about paying 60 RM to actually view the close chained door of Genting theme park cos of the rain~ :) do make my wish come true... **begging face @.@ ** pweety pwease?

Anyway.. thinking of places to go in Melaka.. Seaside is a MUST!! the top of my list.. Ive missed sea like NO ONE could ever imagine!!... my life is all about sitting next to the sea side and listening to MP3 ( not that i have one tho~~ wish i do ) -- but for my case i will be using my phone to listen to songs.. whatever sha~~ anyway yeah~ listening to music.. and just lay down on those damp sandy sand! and of cos its not on sunny munny day.. should be sumwhere at dawn~ owhhhhh ** what a feeling <---- actually started fantasizing about it already ><"

Anyway if u give me forever .. ill still not stop writing.. before my bigger boss comes in finding me blogging and gets either my hands chop or head!~ <-- ( following his mood swings for sure )

I better be going~ =) adioz amigos~ btw i still need that slap to wake me up.. cos blogging din do any good =.= so much for the SHA's Book Of Theory~~ ( another note to myself.. Blogging doesnt make u widSave Nowe awake.. it makes u sleepier after reading it back ) --- okay Noted!!

Anyway..to all out there that is sleepy in the office.. ill suggest you guys to... mmmm .. sleep? =P but when ur boss called ur name and say are u sleeping.. jst answer him back.. NO BOSS! cant u see.. Im THINKING!! im in a deep Thought... uve ruined it!! now see i have to start back all over.. DND mode~~ :) and continue sleeping :) =.= chows

A Long Way To Go :)

well well well lets see what we've got here.. :)

Back again to blab about my life over and over again.. beeing pain in the ass at office didnt help much that ive started blogging so i can annoy the others too with my own dilemma.. **as if anyone would care less? ** anyway back to my whole sort of dilemma thingy~~

Mom is nagging about me getting married..~ oh this soo traditional way of getting married sort of thing~~ u know like .. ill find u a guy.. get to know him.. if u like him marry him.. if not.. dont :) thanks mom for at least being linean to me rather than those monster mom that say.. NO marry him and tats final~~ (( imagining myself there for a while...@.@ damn its scary **))

Anyway.. she is trying to hook me up with a bunch of guys that are also finding wifes according to their mom.. soo its like mom n mom talk and son and daughter meets? mom n dad will smile and daughter n son makes decision? like?? OMG.. where is he from.. what is he doing?? he ever cheated his ex before? why is he following traditional way.. ?? is he close minded too? what if his tamper is really bad?? what if he snores everyday until the ex eventually left him?? does he likes chocolate or vanilla? does he likes to shopping?? or is he those book worms that think library is thier castle? is he interested in a girl thats Loud? ( thats me ) or annoying?? or blogs about her problem so the whole worlds knows her dilemma? does he likes to sing?? or maybe movies?? chocolate ? is he allergic to bullshit?? my god~~ too many question.. but how the hell are we gonna know??

Like momm?? u really thing ill get to know him in a month or two.. it will be able to answer my lifetime question.. Btw.. there is more questions.. but ill skip that part.. cos its never ending u see? anyway... like really??? how am i suppose to ask him anything at all!! then they will start saying like.. Ohhh look at thiss snoobish bitch~~ too many question~ like chill girl.. ur not beyonce~ =.= ( ive always hve this thinking that guys always thinks that u have to be beyonce to ask those sort of questions u know ) - BinGO~ just cos she is hot~~ duh ><"

anyway.. **sigh** all those dreams of having a prince charming on a horse ridding with his shinning armor.. disappeared totally~ like really **POOOF** Vanish into thin air... and all i can see is............................ NOTHING :( ... Oh Sha!! grow up now~~ uve been such a whiner all ur life and everybody knows that...


Well for me it might seem like a big dilemma :) well i guess that dilemma have to wait cos im still young and my time to enjoy is here baby~ :) whoever guy that mom is finding can wait :) i am on vacation baby~ :) will meet u after my honey moon year gone by~ :) and wrinkles start to merge up.. then maybe ill be back :) ^__^ sayonara~~ :)


LIFE IS NOT A SMOOTH SAILING BOAT~ :) IS ALWAYS AN UPROAR BATTLE THAT WILL SINK THAT BOAT... Get ready with a life Jacket ~:)

~~Back From Eid HOliday~~

Helow peepz... Im back after Hari Raya Aidilfitri nice long comfy holiday... Neway The Hari Raya first day was with my cuziies :) in My grandma house.. our one and only HOTSPOT every year.. We tend to make sure each n everyone of us will be there to Celebrate the First day of Hari Raya Together.. Is soo much fun.. But this year we didnt play fire crackers.. such a sad thing tho!! Bcos tat is the most awesomeness moment u cn ever Have in tat one full yEar ~ . ~

But anyway.. went there, met my cousiess. Dea, Naz, Tashie, Sara.. and the little ones.. adam, amir, tisya, khalil syaqil, iman and yazzie.. and plenty more!! my god.. our 4th generation is getting wider day by day ... woow... POcket Money also will decrease every Hari Raya.. My god!! ANyway.. we had alot of fun. tho the best part of it is to get HARI RAYA MONEEY.. this year not getting any.. huhuhu since ur already working.. it means just shut up n sit down u aint getting any money anymore.. is better to sit down quietly rather than to open ur mouth and end up u have to pay for the lil ones since ur working :P


I went thru the day by keeping quiet :P and yeay.. i managed to escape :P heeee ^ _____^ such an evil aunty i am :P i know :P looool... anywaya :) despite tat.. we took alot of picca~~~ omg was really such a nice house after my aunt renovated it... the house became like one if the hotspot in Bangsar :) awesomeness is all over :P heee

i will share with u some of the piccas we took during our EID PHOTOSHOOT.. was really nice :)