This is My Twisted Love Story
Just about when everything seems to settle down in place and waiting for the right time to come.. thats when life take its toll in me , and turn 360 degree to bite me in the ass.. Great.. for all those time i spend for nothing.. now become just memories.. sometimes is good to hv sweet memories.. but all i can think about at this time is the memories that I WISHED i had.. but i didn't...
Why issit soo hard for a guy to understand me.. why issit so hard for them to fulfill my needs like i fulfilled theirs.. why issit so hard for them to make me happy like how i made them happy...why issit so hard for them to just love me the way i LOVE them..
It shatters my heart when u lie to me.. once or twice ill accept it.. but sometimes too much of it makes the relaitionship status to be broken.. our love is not as strong as it used to be.. my love has taken the energy out of me.. and all those i wasted on being sad and broken at last..
Issit fair for me..issit fair for my life.. What did i ever do to u to deserve wat ur doing to me..
what didnt i give u when u just utter a word.. I took care of u when ur sick.. i took care of u when ur hungry.. i took u go around so u wont be bored... i care for ur feelings more than mine, i get scolded from my family just cos of u... I got letter from my office just cos i wanted to spend more time with u... there is more than tat i did in my life that it will take the rest of ur life to pay me back...but nevermind... u never appreciate my love.. u never took me as a lover.. all u see me as ws just a gf to u.. which has no value in ur eyes.. tats why u can lie and lie to me.. u can make fool out of myself.. is ok..
Just because i treated u with love, care, sweetness and tender love.. doesnt mean u have to treat me like rubbish, lie to me like i have no feelings.. anyway.. god is great.. Allah has always make us meet the wrong person in life that when we met the right one.. we will learn to appreciate it.. but i guess.. Allah also wants me to see, sweetness in the tongue can never replace a real LOVE because what u hear is not what you see.. And i wish that i hear less and i see more..But my love story is a twisted love story.. my love story ends in hatred.. my love story ended not by loving each other to let go.. but my Love story ended because of the selfishness of a person, and because of lies.. because of No more Trust..My love story is not a story ill be proud to tell my family or grandchildren about..my love story is just a plain simple story that ended up in pain n sorrow..
How i wish it didnt end.. but how i wish it ended earlier so i wouldn't have felt this way.. i wouldn't have felt this lie and i wouldn't have felt this much of hurt... thanks to **you know who u are** for taking me when i was down and covered me by ur hugs, who showed me love and caring, and who showed me the love.. but at the end.. threw me back on the floor and break my shattered heart to smaller pieces.. and at the end.. spit on the love with lies and walk away..... tat is my love story.... thanks to u .. im back to where i started.. and this time.. no one will touch me to make me stand .... ill make u guys watch, how i can stand back up.. and never ever will i turn back to look at my past.. U are my past.. ull remain in my past..
its my time to walk away now.. ill take my life and the heart u broke with me.. ull never see me anymore.. u never will.. keep my good memories with u cos all left of u are the memories that u spoiled.. all made of u are those memories that u spit on.. I will take my shattered dream with me.. ill be alone for now.. thanks for all those hurt u gave me as replacement of all those love i showed u.. thanks for all the time u broke my heart as replacement for the time i heal ur heart... thanks for making me cry more than before and thanks for the newly fresh wound u stabbed in my heart.... Goodbye forever
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